Balance.

"Too much of anything in life can throw us off Balance. At the same time, too little of the important things can do that same thing." -Elder M. Russell Ballard
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I've been putting this post off for some time. I don't like that I have to have an "excuse" for not staying active with my blogging. What used to be a hobby and way of keeping my family and friends updated on Ford Happenings, has turned into this 'job' where I lose 'followers' and 'crediblity' for being a "serious blogger" if I don't post at least twice a week.
Writing is apart of me that I love more than anything. I have always been passionate about it. Something absolutely incredible happens when someone can pick up a pen, or put their fingers to the keyboard, and write down words, thoughts, emotions and stories that influence others for good.  I am constantly thinking thoughts I wish I could share with the world through my blog. So, here's the excuse for not blogging for the last seventy seven days: I just REALLY needed to find some BALANCE. Simple as that. And probably currently true for a lot people. It's something I will most likely have to do several times throughout my life because, lets face it; Life. Is. Hard. I mean, skinned knee, heart broken, sobbing uncontrollably, death wrenching, can't breathe, nothing is fair, I am a failure HARD.  Have you ever felt that.... ALL AT ONCE? If you know my history, I think it's fair to say that I have had a few times in my young 27 years where these emotions would apply, rightfully so. But this time it's different. This time my life is SO GOOD and yet I still have fear, pain, anxiety, anger, jealousy and sadness. In a whirlwind of constant overwhelming emotion, I literally had to take a step back and look at my life. I am SO INCREDIBLY BLESSED. I have a wonderful, faithful, hardworking, loving and righteous husband. I have two beautiful children who have given me the greatest gift of motherhood. They are healthy, happy, so adorable, and remind me how sweet life is. I have family who loves me unconditionally and are some of my best friends. I have faith in God and Jesus Christ and have a testimony of their plan and knowledge that families can be together forever. I am so aware of how blessed I am, and still I get so caught up in the world. But those are the times. We live in a world of social media and I am DAILY trying to keep up with mommy homemaker, Wife Betty and The Jones' next door.  I have so wished, so many times, that my family could pack up and live in the middle of nowhere, removed and unplugged from the world. But I can't and I am just going to be so honest and say that the STRUGGLE is real for me. I know so many others face struggles, challenges, fears and pain in there lives also. My heart hurts to think of people who struggle much worse than I do.
I hope you'll forgive me as I try to find ME. As I get back to the things I love with a little more focus and reason, I hope you'll continue to read along as this blog once again becomes a reflection of me and things I love, my family and things that really matter most.