"Too much of anything in life can throw us off Balance.
At the same time, too little of the important things can do that same thing."
-Elder M. Russell Ballard
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I've been putting this post off for some time.
I don't like that I have to have an "excuse" for not staying active with my blogging.
What used to be a hobby and way of keeping my family and friends updated on Ford Happenings, has turned into this 'job' where I lose 'followers' and 'crediblity' for being a "serious blogger" if I don't post at least twice a week.
Writing is apart of me that I love more than anything.
I have always been passionate about it.
Something absolutely incredible happens when someone can pick up a pen, or put their fingers to the keyboard, and write down words, thoughts, emotions and stories that influence others for good.
I am constantly thinking thoughts I wish I could share with the world through my blog.
So, here's the excuse for not blogging for the last seventy seven days:
I just REALLY needed to find some BALANCE.
Simple as that.
And probably currently true for a lot people.
It's something I will most likely have to do several times throughout my life because, lets face it;
Life. Is. Hard.
I mean, skinned knee, heart broken, sobbing uncontrollably, death wrenching, can't breathe, nothing is fair, I am a failure HARD.
Have you ever felt that.... ALL AT ONCE?
If you know my history, I think it's fair to say that I have had a few times in my young 27 years where these emotions would apply, rightfully so.
But this time it's different.
This time my life is SO GOOD and yet I still have fear, pain, anxiety, anger, jealousy and sadness.
In a whirlwind of constant overwhelming emotion, I literally had to take a step back and look at my life.
I am SO INCREDIBLY BLESSED.
I have a wonderful, faithful, hardworking, loving and righteous husband.
I have two beautiful children who have given me the greatest gift of motherhood.
They are healthy, happy, so adorable, and remind me how sweet life is.
I have family who loves me unconditionally and are some of my best friends.
I have faith in God and Jesus Christ and have a testimony of their plan and knowledge that families can be together forever.
I am so aware of how blessed I am, and still I get so caught up in the world.
But those are the times.
We live in a world of social media and I am DAILY trying to keep up with mommy homemaker, Wife Betty and The Jones' next door.
I have so wished, so many times, that my family could pack up and live in the middle of nowhere, removed and unplugged from the world.
But I can't and I am just going to be so honest and say that the STRUGGLE is real for me.
I know so many others face struggles, challenges, fears and pain in there lives also.
My heart hurts to think of people who struggle much worse than I do.
I hope you'll forgive me as I try to find ME.
As I get back to the things I love with a little more focus and reason, I hope you'll continue to read along as this blog once again becomes a reflection of me and things I love, my family and things that really matter most.
