The Truth.

I was startled awake this morning by a laughing dinosaur who had previously been viciously hunting me down. The truth... That seemed fitting for today.
I was later woken again by my sweet two year old touching my face saying  "Mommy wake up. Hi Mommy" The truth... That also seemed fitting for today.

We skipped swim lessons because I had a mild panic attack as soon as I got my Hunter in his swim trunks. The truth.... Well obviously, that makes sense today.
I spent the day feeling sad, missing you and just wanting to crawl back in bed. But, I couldn't because I had two small children clinging on me at all moments of the day wanting to be held. The truth... I am so grateful for those tiny spirits who I know came from heaven where they got to be with you a short while before starting their earthly journeys. So, I guess I didn't mind the extra cuddles today.
We spent the evening with Aubs, Dan and J. Grandma & Whitney came along to. We ate pizza, laughed and the boys had a water balloon fight. The truth... It also seemed fitting for today.

The Truth. I miss you terribly. I miss your infectious laugh. I miss your charming smile. I miss your caring, loving and tender personality. I miss your "big" little brother protecting instincts.
The Truth. I can't believe FOUR years have come and gone in the blink of an eye. It feels like just yesterday we were down playing baseball up the canyon as a family.
The Truth. Sometimes I feel angry you aren't here. Sometimes I cry when I say your name. I cry when I think about a memory I have with you or here a song on the radio that reminds me of you.
The Truth. I worry everyday that something bad will happen. I think BAD things before GOOD things and panic about nothing. I can't fall asleep without checking my children to make sure they are breathing. My heart skips a little when I get a call AND a voicemail from Dad.
The Truth. I will never be the same. I will anxiously wait for the day we meet again in heaven.
The Truth. I am grateful for the knowledge that families can be together forever. I am grateful that I KNOW without a doubt that I will see you again. I know you miss us to. I know that you watching over Mom, Dad, Me, Aubrey, McKenna & Haley. I know you are happy. I know you aren't in any pain. I know you are walking with The Savior and serving him well on the other side.
Save us a spot in line baby brother.
To The Moon & Back & Once Around The Stars. PS. I am so thankful to everyone who sent their thoughts to me and my family today. It's always a hard day, today and his birthday, and we feel so blessed to have so many friends and family who love us and who love Hunter.
I mean... How awesome is my Visiting Teacher? Thanks Jessica.

And thanks to the ADORABLE Conover Family (this incredible family I met through work). They brought over the yummiest cupcakes and sweet Miranda made these beautiful origami pieces for the kids and I.  Definitely brought a smile to our faces! 

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If you are new to FordOlogy you can read more about my Brother Hunter here, here, &  here.

33 Weeks + 3days + A New Tradition.

Today I had my 33 week appointment.

Baby's heartbeat sounds great.

The Dr. said he would BET that she will be here before the 14th of Feb.

(and if she comes as early as Hunter we have T-minus THREE weeks).

Pray for us! 

(we may have packed my hospital bag and Hunters overnight bag tonight just in case)

I am 11pounds lighter then I was with Hunter this far along.

I found this picture of when I was pregnant with Hunter at 33 weeks and noticed that I wore the same outfit yesterday to church at 33 weeks pregnant with baby girl. 

Hunter.

Baby Girl.

Can you see the 11 pounds?

I can! 

Tonight was a busy fun filled evening.

We started a new tradition and decorated our New Year's Tree 

(an awesome tradition and great way to STRETCH out the use of that favorite Christmas piece)

Streamers, balloons and a tissue paper topper. 

I saw the idea on a friends Instagram page and when I saw her today I asked her about it.

She said she has been doing it since she was little and her grandmother used to put all sorts of decorations on including money and candy bars! 

Her tree looked awesome with New Year's eve hats and tinsel.

We went a little simple for our first year as we put it together with what we had around the house, but I think next year we will add a few more things! 
It's so fun to be able to start our own traditions as our family is growing.

After we put Hunter to bed, Kevin and I worked on some projects.

My awesome husband Youtubed how to shorten window blinds and was able to knock out a couple around the house like a PRO. 

Way to go babe.

I went to the garage and continued working on the dresser for baby girls room.

I cannot wait to see it all finished and in her room.

Hope you all enjoy your last day of Two-Thousand-Thirteen tomorrow.

Any big plans for New Years Eve? 

Ps. I took Hunter to Jamba Juice today for the first time.

He LOVED it.

#redgummybearfans

So Long, Farewell.

Last night was the first of several family get together's over the next two weeks to say Farewell.

My handsome cousin Jordan has been called to serve a mission for 

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in the Monterey Mexico West Mission.

He will be in the Provo Utah MTC for 6 weeks before heading south for two years.

Last night we had the Utah Goold's over to say goodbye to our sweet cousin.

Food, cake and some of my favorite people made for a wonderful night. 

We LOVE you Jordan Zackery

& we are SO PROUD of you.

Pumpkin Pickin' Season.

Saturday we took a family trip to Hee Haw Farms.

Our FAVORITE little pumpkin patch and farm.

We went last year and Hunter was still too little to enjoy it, but this year, we took full advantage of all the great activities they have for children.

Hee Haw Farms is the PERFECT place for families with young children.

(We have LOVED Cornbelly's for years but they just don't seem to have enough options for young children... especially for the price)

We met up with our friends and spent two hours doing EVERYTHING we possibly could.

The boys took Hunter & Timmy on the giant slide.

We got to see and pet lots of animals.

Went on a Pony Ride.

We went through the corn maze.

Went on a Hayride.

Our Favorite Friends.

Picked out the PERFECT pumpkins.

And Even Snuck in a little family photo.

It was an amazing day.

 And last night for Family Home Evening we carved our pumpkin.

I am really loving Fall this year.

Where is your favorite place to take the family for Pumpkin picking festivities??

And Check out the LINKUP we joined for Halloween.